Brick Wall

So last week I hit the proverbial brick wall – BAM. I’m still not sure what happened. One minute I felt fine, and the next I felt totally drained and “zoned out”.

Okay, it’s been a stressful few weeks as I’ve had to deal with various challenges and mini-crises, but I can usually handle all this with ease. In fact, I pride myself in being the “go to” person whenever family and friends have problems.

Well, I guess I’ve been so busy taking care of other people’s emotional and physical health lately that I’ve completely neglected my own. No, I’m not trying to make myself sound like a martyr – far from it as martyrdom requires selfless acts without complaining…and believe me, I can bitch and moan with the best of them.

I thought I was taking care of myself more – my change of diet, daily exercise on the treadmill, meditation, etc. What I didn’t realize, however, was that I’m emotionally worn out.

The alopecia diagnosis was a real wake-up call.

I do think my daily meditation practice is helping me purge all the negative influences in my life, but I still find myself exhausted and drained by the end of each day. Perhaps this is just part of the process my body needs to heal.

So, instead of fighting it or trying to bluff my way through, I’m going to listen to what my body and mind are telling me, which is that it’s time to focus on myself.

[tags]brick wall, meditation practice, alopecia diagnosis, negative influences, healing[/tags]