Letting Go

Okay, I’ll admit it. I hold grudges. If I want to, I can cling on to a grudge like you wouldn’t believe – barnacles on rocks have nothing on me.

I know, I know – we can all get upset about things said or not said at any given time, but some people manage to shrug it off and forget about it. Me? Not so much. I mean, I remember something insignificant that my sister did to me when we were kids, for goodness sake, and I still feel that twinge of a grudge…

Unhealthy? Of course – but until recently I didn’t realize how much it has affected my emotional and physical health over the years.

That’s where Meditation comes in. Now that I’ve started meditating again, certain unpleasant and long-suppressed memories are surfacing. It’s funny but I don’t recall this happening when I first started meditating years ago, but I didn’t take it all that seriously either – it was more along the lines of “let’s just throw in a few minutes of meditation today” sort of thing.

These days, I choose to take my meditation far more seriously. I make sure that I meditate every morning – and that’s when all these memories start to surface. The funny thing is that they don’t make me feel bad or angry anymore. It’s as though I’m expelling all the grudges as I exhale…and when I’m through with my meditation, I feel wonderful – refreshed, renewed and invigorated.

I’m learning to let go – and it’s an amazing feeling.

[tags]meditation, healing the emotion, emotional health, meditation everyday, meditation in the morning[/tags]