Off the Wagon, Again
Recently, this has become an altogether too common and perhaps tired observation, but – things are stressful! Many people I meet are saying the same thing. And I, for one, can’t remember the last time I had a proper night’s sleep, or a day where I didn’t spend at least some time working at school on a project or assignment, or just trying to master a new technique. It’s been overwhelming and I’ve unfortunately turned to old habits to help bear me up.
I know, I know. I hear the litany in my head every time I step out for some “fresh air.” This is dumb and I hate it, but I can’t seem to stop. I keep trying, and I never make it for more than 48 hours. Heck, I’m lucky if I make it that far. I get cranky and snappy and cease social functioning within a day of quitting, so I usually make some excuse to myself and either buy or bum my way back to my habit.
Really, though, the long and the short of it is I need to quit. Now. Yesterday, in fact. Last time I quit was after being sick with a cold. The congestion was frightening and I basically scared myself out of smoking. However, this time, lacking any sort of similar motivation, I’m able to lie to myself at all the right times. And I continue to give in.
It has been a month since I last attended a yoga session, and I suspect resuming regular practice would help immensely in this respect. I must resolve to attend regular sessions again and see if I can’t kick this god-awful habit. Again.
In the meantime, if anyone has any ideas, tips, solutions, or magic spells, do let me know. I’d appreciate it.
[tags]smoking, habit, busy life, yoga session, cigarettes, quit smoking[/tags]